DAY 3
August 1st
Actually got 5 1/2 hours of sleep last night, sleep is coming easier now, getting into the routine.
Woke up this morning at 6 am and looked at the clock and realized today was August 1st, exactly one month ago Dad died. I still struggle daily with him being gone, got chocked up a couple times today. Today really because in class we started working on 90 Degree Alley Dock, and the last time I did great I was able to call dad and thank him for teaching me when I was younger with the horse trailer, couldn't do that today. Spend I lot of time praying and talking to dad.
Loneliness is going to be my enemy while away from class because I get inside my own head which is a dangerous place to be. Kind of why I started this blog to get my thoughts and feelings out. I miss my wife and kids and pup, but I face time them everyday and get to hear about their day and share mine, even if it's only for an hour or so it actually helps. They start school in a few days so I hope that will help with me being gone, but they need to know I am away from them because I love them and want to provide a better life for them that they deserve.
Sure I have cried, many nights, I cry my self to sleep frequently, I use to be afraid to admit that but now I don't care, I have to get it out, and right now there is no one around to help. I'm not looking for sympathy because I know there are many of you out there who have lost parents and know my pain, and they have reached out and it helps, and I am grateful for them. I take comfort and knowing my dad was a Christian and I know he rests easy in his heavenly home. I'm not angry at God, I have never even questioned why God took him when he did, I know it was in his infinite plan and it's not for us to understand HIS plan and wisdom, we just have to trust Him and that everything he does is because he loves us. He is Perfect in everything he does, and I thank him every day for everything he has given and everything he has taken away.
Class Day 3 Got to school this am and we changed up groups a little bit and we did pre-trip, I missed a couple things but it is getting better, we will just keep pounding it out, we have "cheat Sheets" that have the verbiage on it so really just memorizing that. The neat thing is Rusty doesn't want us to just be able to ramble off the papers, but what the component is and what it does, we aren't learning to be mechanics but it will make it easier if we find something wrong we call the shop and tell them hey this doesn't seem right, they can either tell us how to fix, or if we need to get to a shop. It will come with repetition. After quick break we moved to the yard, to practice my Achilles heel the 90 alley back, one of the most difficult moves for the rookies to perform but that's what we do most of the time BACK into Docks and they aren't all straight backs. While we are setting the course up a Jet Black Maserati Gran Turismo pulls into the back lot, everyone stops and turns, I said that can only be one person. Sure enough Tommy Hodges pulls up and get's out of the Maserati. Who is Tommy Hodges? He is the Owner of Titan Transfer, he wanted to take time and come out and introduce himself meet us, he then proceeded to thank us for choosing Titan, welcomed us to the family and said you can call him or ANYONE in the office 24/7 just call or walk in, everyone is more then welcome to help and if they can't get you the answer to the question they are going to work their tail off to find the information for you. That said a lot to me if the OWNER of the company comes out to the dirty range and say hello....AMAZING.
First trip the the Alley dock was not horrible but could have been better, by the END of the day was getting it in the dock ALMOST 1st try every try, I feel a lot more comfortable now then I did at Millis with it. The more I am here and get back into it the more I remember how much I love this job. It's been a LONG time since I have been able to say I LOVE MY JOB....time to study a little more and relax, excited to see what tomorrow brings.
I love you Dad and Miss you.. Hug your loved ones DAILY, and if you haven't talked to someone because of some petty thing. Forgive them, call them say hello, pray for them love them.
Thank You for Joining on the crazy journey
Safe Travels, Love One another
Firemedic2816
Actually got 5 1/2 hours of sleep last night, sleep is coming easier now, getting into the routine.
Woke up this morning at 6 am and looked at the clock and realized today was August 1st, exactly one month ago Dad died. I still struggle daily with him being gone, got chocked up a couple times today. Today really because in class we started working on 90 Degree Alley Dock, and the last time I did great I was able to call dad and thank him for teaching me when I was younger with the horse trailer, couldn't do that today. Spend I lot of time praying and talking to dad.
Loneliness is going to be my enemy while away from class because I get inside my own head which is a dangerous place to be. Kind of why I started this blog to get my thoughts and feelings out. I miss my wife and kids and pup, but I face time them everyday and get to hear about their day and share mine, even if it's only for an hour or so it actually helps. They start school in a few days so I hope that will help with me being gone, but they need to know I am away from them because I love them and want to provide a better life for them that they deserve.
Sure I have cried, many nights, I cry my self to sleep frequently, I use to be afraid to admit that but now I don't care, I have to get it out, and right now there is no one around to help. I'm not looking for sympathy because I know there are many of you out there who have lost parents and know my pain, and they have reached out and it helps, and I am grateful for them. I take comfort and knowing my dad was a Christian and I know he rests easy in his heavenly home. I'm not angry at God, I have never even questioned why God took him when he did, I know it was in his infinite plan and it's not for us to understand HIS plan and wisdom, we just have to trust Him and that everything he does is because he loves us. He is Perfect in everything he does, and I thank him every day for everything he has given and everything he has taken away.
Class Day 3 Got to school this am and we changed up groups a little bit and we did pre-trip, I missed a couple things but it is getting better, we will just keep pounding it out, we have "cheat Sheets" that have the verbiage on it so really just memorizing that. The neat thing is Rusty doesn't want us to just be able to ramble off the papers, but what the component is and what it does, we aren't learning to be mechanics but it will make it easier if we find something wrong we call the shop and tell them hey this doesn't seem right, they can either tell us how to fix, or if we need to get to a shop. It will come with repetition. After quick break we moved to the yard, to practice my Achilles heel the 90 alley back, one of the most difficult moves for the rookies to perform but that's what we do most of the time BACK into Docks and they aren't all straight backs. While we are setting the course up a Jet Black Maserati Gran Turismo pulls into the back lot, everyone stops and turns, I said that can only be one person. Sure enough Tommy Hodges pulls up and get's out of the Maserati. Who is Tommy Hodges? He is the Owner of Titan Transfer, he wanted to take time and come out and introduce himself meet us, he then proceeded to thank us for choosing Titan, welcomed us to the family and said you can call him or ANYONE in the office 24/7 just call or walk in, everyone is more then welcome to help and if they can't get you the answer to the question they are going to work their tail off to find the information for you. That said a lot to me if the OWNER of the company comes out to the dirty range and say hello....AMAZING.
First trip the the Alley dock was not horrible but could have been better, by the END of the day was getting it in the dock ALMOST 1st try every try, I feel a lot more comfortable now then I did at Millis with it. The more I am here and get back into it the more I remember how much I love this job. It's been a LONG time since I have been able to say I LOVE MY JOB....time to study a little more and relax, excited to see what tomorrow brings.
I love you Dad and Miss you.. Hug your loved ones DAILY, and if you haven't talked to someone because of some petty thing. Forgive them, call them say hello, pray for them love them.
Thank You for Joining on the crazy journey
Safe Travels, Love One another
Firemedic2816
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